It’s taken me 3 weeks to get this blog post out. I (and many others here at MOM’s) have had my hands full with the moving and opening of our Rockville store and central offices. Throughout the past month, I have been in a restless, irritable, and discontent state of mind- as I have created uncompromisingly high standards for service, quality, and execution. Failure to deliver is not an option.
I have been taught that my irritable state-of-mind is not due to external circumstances- that if I am disturbed, then there is something wrong with me- that my spiritual condition at the moment is weak. I believe this to be true. I sometimes (i.e. almost always!) give way too much power to my surroundings, letting them control the way I feel (and behave).
I am a fan of Tara Brach– a Bethesda based woman who leads guided meditations across the country. She speaks often of being “present” vs. being in a “trance.” To me, the definition of being in a “trance” is reacting, rather than thoughtfully responding. Sometimes my existence seems to amount to not much more than a pinball being batted around by the universe.
I recall a proverb that I once heard: “Being resentful is like drinking poison and hoping that it kills the other guy.” When I have negative feelings of irritability and resentment, it mostly hurts me.
My “surroundings” include a wife, 3 children, and a business with 500+ employees who are trying to save the world by protecting and restoring the environment. For me to have a loving and well-adjusted family and a business that changes the world, I need to remember that for the benefit of all, my #1 priority must be my spiritual condition!